Indescribable;;

Friday, August 31, 2007: library moments

i am currently in the library trying to cram up on more macro stuff and i have finally decided to throw in the towel and not study. realistically, i dont think i can get any more stuff into my head. very good excuse, i must say. however i do need a break from econs :S

i am praying very hard right now, just to let you know.

tonight for OCF marks an ending of another fruitful term for the old LC and for the new LC, a fresh new beginning filled with anticipation. drawing a parallel from this, today i learnt of how to let go and how to move on.

there's also national prayer day/NPD for ocf tmr. i'm quite excited to see how i go as a group leader, hopefully i can gauge how difficult it might like trying to lead a group for devotion and prayer. maybe, just maybe, i might consider being stepping up to be a BS leader next sem.. continue to pray for me i guess (: as i try to figure out my role in OCF for the next semester. pray that i will have the courage again to step up to serve.

nat has given up studying too, maybe we should just go for a walk instead.

more updates soon! (:

a shout of praise.
3:01 PM

my pride

The Parable of the Pharisee and the Tax Collector (Luke 18:9-14)

To some who were confident of their own righteousness and looked down on everybody else, Jesus told this parable: "Two men went up to the temple to pray, one a Pharisee and the other a tax collector. The Pharisee stood up and prayed about himself: 'God, I thank you that I am not like other men—robbers, evildoers, adulterers—or even like this tax collector. I fast twice a week and give a tenth of all I get.'

"But the tax collector stood at a distance. He would not even look up to heaven, but beat his breast and said, 'God, have mercy on me, a sinner.'

"I tell you that this man, rather than the other, went home justified before God. For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, and he who humbles himself will be exalted."

Take my life and let it be

conscrated Lord to Thee.

a shout of praise.
2:54 PM

Wednesday, August 29, 2007: david's example

Psalms 39:4-5

"Show me, O Lord, my life's end

and the number of my days;

let me know how fleeting is my life.

You have made my days a mere handbreadth;

the span of my years is as nothing before you.

Each man's life is but a breath. "

there are probably more than just psalm 39 and psalm 90 which remind us to live with the end in mind. i came across psalm 39 today while flipping through the first few pages of psalms and it just made me think about how currently meaningless physical life on earth can be, we are just but a vapour in the wind. yet the almighty God still gives us the time of day, hearing us at the whim of when we feel like talking to Him, otherwise we just leave him alone. its just like a math function.

i think it is important to remember that people like david was close to God because they relied on God to be used for His purpose. even people like david still had to ask God to help them when they struggled with being blind. even david, in all of his glory as a king, accredited it to God and continued to hope in the Lord.

so, how do we want to live our lives?

a shout of praise.
4:43 PM

Tuesday, August 28, 2007: through the looking glass.

when you looking into the mirror, what do you see? how do you see yourself?

as christians, do we aim and constantly try to live a life that is reflective of God's image?

here's a thought: perfection, per se, is not about us being the perfect human beings, but is about us being made perfect through what Jesus has done on the cross for us. Jesus came so that we can be blameless before God.

with this idea of grace in mind, do we strive to be a light to the world so that they equally have the chance to share this umerited, free love that God has shown to the world?

a shout of praise.
10:01 PM

Sunday, August 26, 2007: choice.

when it comes for the time to choose which path you want to take, which would you choose?

sometimes i find it so difficult to walk on the straight and narrow, i find it so hard to follow God, especially when what i want is in a completely different direction from the direction God is pointing me in.

why do we as humans never learn to trust in God's perfect plan?

i guess it sort of helps to understand how we as humans will never be able to match up to God's perfection, and how we need to draw on God's strength everyday.

i want to watch ratatouille.

HOLIDAYS COME QUICK.

a shout of praise.
7:41 PM

Saturday, August 25, 2007: being of the world.

"Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders,

and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us."

Hebrews 12:1

but how, O God, do we endure this life which is so full of booby traps, so full of lies, so full of hurt, so full of imperfection?

by faith, my child.

"To the Lord your God belong the heavens, even the highest heavens, the earth and everything in it. Yet the Lord set His affection on your forefathers and loved them, and He chose you, their descendants, above all the nations, as it is today."

Deuteronomy 10:14-15

a shout of praise.
7:18 PM

Wednesday, August 22, 2007: fat days are over!

"But blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord,

whose confidence is in Him.
He will be like a tree planted by the water

that sends out its roots by the stream.

It does not fear when heat comes;

its leaves are always green.

It has no worries in a year of drought

and never fails to bear fruit."

Jeremiah 17:7-8 (NIV)

today i was having a fat day again, and i was staring at the mirror at myself and despising myself for not having a skinny enough body and not being able to fit into some of the clothes that i could early in the year. yesterday my boss's mother was at the cafe and she was commenting on how actually my legs were quite big but my arms were skinny (she said 其实你的脚很大zhi leh 但是为什么你的手那么瘦?) and i was trying to defend myself, saying how i used to go swimming and thats why i had muscles and they were becoming flabby cos its winter and i havent been going swimming, just to make me look better and skinnier in her eyes.

i dont understand why sometimes i get so unconfident in the way i look. i wish sometimes i had a high metabolism rate or i have small bones, just so that i can look smaller, or even shorter, so that even if i were chubby i would be chubby cute, not chubby big.

i guess over the years i have become less ignorant of my misplace of confidence and not let it affect me as much as it used to. i have come a long way. but today, today was a bad day.

but the still small voice in my ear questioned, "where does your confidence lie?" and instantly i was reminded of jer 17:7-8. "But blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is in Him."

the still small voice also comforted me, saying,

"For You formed my inward parts;

You covered me in my mother’s womb.

I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;

Marvelous are Your works,

And that my soul knows very well."

Psalm 139:13-14 (NKJV)

"I have loved you with an everlasting love;

I have drawn you with loving-kindness."

Jeremiah 31:3 (NIV)

and i felt slightly better after that, knowing that even if the world hated how i look, God still love who i am because He created me in His own image (:

a shout of praise.
4:27 PM

Tuesday, August 21, 2007: a tribute to mgs!

today as i was chopping up carrots to put into the food processor at work i was reminiscing about the good old days back in mgs, where we chopped carrots for our biology lab sessions with our lab partners. i remember we did carrots for either our prelims or our O's. (: carrots have these cool star shaped middles. i remember we had to label the drawings, cortex... cortex.. i think thats all i can remember now. i also remember we had to put like the measurements and stuff, i really hated that. but plants were cool. i liked the flowers bit :D

i also remember the times when mr tay, in sec 4, would complain to us about the day and how he broke up with his girlfriend; or he would come in late for class every lesson and we would have free periods, or how he would show us random videos about the parts of the body; or even how we had bio right after pe and we would take our own sweet time to get back to class after pe and hang out in the toilet washing up so that we'd feel so much better from the sticky, humid, singaporean air. i remember the times when we had to dissect our pigs heart, or cow's eyeball, or pig's (? was it?) kidney for lab and there wasnt enough eyeballs in the market for us to buy so the whole class crowded around mr tay demonstrating the dissection on a fellow classmate's eyeball (the cow's one, not her's!); only to find out that a few days later, everyone in 4b2 had eyeballs but because their bio teacher wasnt around they dumped their eyeballs into the fish pond.

i remember the times in sec 3 when mrs cheong would come to class so excited about bio, making me excited about bio. i remember once we had to watch a very painful video on pregnancy, and it was about this woman who was going into labour and the blood and everything was so gross, and the baby's head popping out. i think. dont quite remember, all too long ago. i remember how fun interesting the digestive system was, learning about enzymes and hydrochloric acid, i remember drawing this chart and being so proud of it. i was so good at the digestive system. i think it was salivary amylase in the mouth breaking down starch, and oh! i remember fructose, glucose, and the milk one.. and there were many other carbo ones.. protein with protease et cetera et cetera. ooh and fat was the coolest. i remember the soaps and all breaking away from the main chain thing and then joining back together again. vaguely remember.

bio rocked my world. (: but then human bio in yr 12 was too much information that my tiny brain cannot store enough to understand the whole beauty of the human body, its functions and evolution. i guess i'm just happy enough to know that God's design was too intelligent for me to comprehend. hahaha!

ahh, i miss mg days. (: there's so much more about mg that i could ramble on about, 10 whole years of being there gave me a heck load of memories! for instance about the time where i had to spend detention on a saturday mopping the staff room floor when i was in sec1, all because i looked at a vulgar poem which my friend who was sitting beside me during a lesson wrote. owell (: it was fun being in the staff room anyway. i love my big fat pillar! (i like hugging this particular pillar in the staff room. it was nice and cold :D )

i remember being scolded by mr ng for fidgeting during assembly (which i always do cos i cant stand still) in sec 1 and in sec 4 we became really good friends because he was my ltc group teacher in sec3 and 4. it was fun having him around (:

i remember in primary 6 where me and kaye and some others would stay back for math remedial and then walk over to kfc in bukit timah plaza for popcorn chicken and bubble tea, or eat instant noodles at mobil across the road.

i remember in primary 6 when we had higher chinese we all cheated in ting xie for mo xie because we couldn't memorise the what seemed to be an incredulously long passage of about 7 sentences. (it just seemed hard cos of the big chinese characters and come on, it was higher chinese)

i remember in primary 1, i think my form teacher didnt really like me because i showed some kind of attitude, plus i didnt really do my homework, but i showed extraordinary talent for a bum: i did so well for my exams! i remember that my grades were all in the 90s in pri 1. how good was i! and the girl who sat beside me always copied my work -.-"

i remember in primary 4 me and nicole watched a musical potpourri and we wanted to join the pri school choir from then on. they sang walk dont run in the hallway, walk dont run i say... oh man! i still remember it. and bethel's sister and mom sang love in any language as a duet piece and i was in awe! then in pri 5 we joined the choir.

i remember in pri school we had all these weird friendship clubs and fights, in pri 2 nicole, nat and me formed the tesco club, which i have no idea why we called it tesco, i think cos when i went to england tesco was this supermarket and i stole some gift cards or some card which had the tesco name on it back, so we became a cool club which had its own real membership card. oh! i remember we wrote all these hate notes to each other. it was swell. haha, i remember i wrote one to claire in pri 5 to stop forcing nicole to do something or other, cant quite remember (nic, help me here!) and i remember i wrote something about how nicole's father was a lawyer and he could sue claire for it, and i remember i got into trouble after it because miss pook talked to me about threat notes.

i remember dance in mgs and how we had zaki in sec 1 and we all cried from his torment, but when we got to the performance we were all very happy because we had the most cheers from the crowd, i.e. we had a cool dance, which came with pretty costumes! kaleidoscope came and went in: i remember that we made such a big fuss about our costumes, especially the lycra short tights. it was awful! we changed it though. we wore jazz pants instead :P rebels!

i remember longest day and how we cried when we watched the video that our teachers made for us. we were the first batch that teachers actually made videos for! and it was so sweet. that day really made me miss mg so so much, and we hadnt even left yet!

i remember sec 4 and the eightofus (: and how we used to rush down to the canteen to eat recess. stingray at the malay uncle's store! or yong tau foo with the yong tau foo lady, where jiaen would just eat a miserable few fishcakes in a big bowl of soup. i remember for a period of time we tried to have a lunch box day which failed pretty badly because we never remembered to bring anything. i love everything about the 8! we still meet up every so often when i get back (:

i miss lovemg! this year is the second year that i havent served in lovemg. i miss the team! maybe in 4 years when i get back i can continue to serve in love mg, sowing back seeds which was sown into me so many years ago, by the faithful lovemg team (:

but anyways, look at the time, its 10:30 already! i think i should let pictures do the talking instead. i think i should leave some of my rebellious past aside so that i wont look so terrible in your eyes ;)

p.s. brendon! this is why i use Methodist Girls' School writing paper even now! i love mgs! :D

a shout of praise.
9:40 PM

Monday, August 20, 2007: arrival.

we were driving along west coast highway today heading towards bsf in duncraig when i saw the beautiful sunset from the car. the days are getting longer again! the sun set completely around 6:30 today, hurray. (: means spring is coming, where the pretty flowers bloom and the leaves sprout from the barren looking branches once again. (:

spring is pretty.

ever imagined the creation story? where God created the world in 6 days?

spring gives me a very beautiful image of it, or at least of day 3 (:

i can't wait!

"When i consider Your heavens,

the work of Your fingers,

the moon and the stars, which You have ordained,

What is man that You are mindful of him,

And the son of man that You visit him?

O Lord, our Lord,

How excellent is Your name in all the earth!"

Psalm 8:2-4, 9

a shout of praise.
10:26 PM

plans for 2008

recently debs, youyan, esther and i have been talking about plans for next year. we (youyan, esther and i, debs finishes this year) had been considering moving into a new 3-roomed place, but then i think we're gonna just stick to our current place, considering that rent has been going up everywhere. (: yay. i quite like my current house, even though it might mean that it might get abit crowded next year, but it already is currently the 4 of us most of the time, and 3 usually when we go to sleep, so i wouldn't mind :D with all the stuff i have accumulated this year, i think it'd be too much hassle moving again.

i think we're gonna all go on a holiday together down south at the end of the year to celebrate debs' last year here! i cant wait! it sounds so exciting. looking at how quickly time passes here (it's already been one month of school!) i think itll be quite fast to the end of this semester. hehe!

wheee. i'm so excited. last night we were thinking about how we were going to arrange furniture for next year so that we can accomodate for one extra person actually staying here. seems like we have to make a study outside, and recreate a living and dining area. but its so exciting :D :D

man, i should concentrate on studying now! dont know what to study for my MA tutorial assessment later on, it should be chapter 4 but we havent finished chapter 4! and we did chapter 3 last week in our tutes.. mm. and i only have mood for MA right now. roar. lunch soon anyways.

SUBWAY HERE I COME! :D

a shout of praise.
11:46 AM

Sunday, August 19, 2007: Death

"But our citizenship is in heaven. And we eagerly await a Savior from there, the Lord Jesus Christ, who, by the power that enables him to bring everything under his control, will transform our lowly bodies so that they will be like his glorious body."

Philippians 3:20-21

Today in church an old lady diagnosed with cancer gave us a humbling testimonial of her faith in God despite her deterioration of her health. she shared about her struggle with not being able to recieve chemo and having to take radiotherapy instead, and that would only take away the pain and not prolong her life. but yet i think what most struck me was her not putting her faith and confidence in the things of this world. she never once complained in her testimonial about wanting to stay on this earth longer because she was certain of her citizenship in heaven, she knew that she was going to be taken home with God. the old lady was so joyful in her sorrow. i was so blown away by her courage, even in the face of death. this was what hit me in the face: our attitude to death shows how much we cling to this world.

if i were to die tomorrow, what would i regret the most? would i be as confident as the old lady was? Paul said in Philippians not to put our confidence in the flesh (Phil 3:3).

today made me think about what Jesus really came to do: to save us so that we might have life, and have it to the full. (John 10:10) we have all crossed over from death to the world to having life with Christ. i thought about the unmerited grace that God has so lovingly given us, that we do not have to gain our salvation through works.

today made me look at how my grandfather was saved. cancer also took his life away, but yet it is comforting to know that even in his last year of battle he was taken home to the Lord. and we can definitely be certain of his citizenship in heaven.

what do you cling to the most? is it the hope that God has given us? or do you cling to this world, knowing that you havent lived out the life that you wanted?

You have overcome the grave
Your glory fills the highest place
What can separate me now?

You tore the veil
You made a way
When You said that it is done.

a shout of praise.
9:23 PM

Saturday, August 18, 2007: Genesis 1: In the Beginning...

today i woke up early for a little escapade to Matilda Bay to have a little moment with God. i looked at waves ebbing from the shore, i looked at the cotton wool clouds in the sky, i looked at the people kayaking around the buoys, i looked at the horizon in the distance, and i marveled at God's intelligent design. i felt the wind in my hair, i felt the sun beat down on my back, and i felt glad that i could experience God's creation. as i enjoyed my breakfast from barretts, there came this expectant seagull looking for a share of his breakfast. and i was reminded of God's providence. (Matt 6:26)

but how quickly we all forget God's marvellous and perfect design, and once i returned back to my world, the feelings of exams, tiredness, stress, worries, wanting to be nuah just overflowed out of me. roar, how easily we all forget God's providence and beauty, that even the birds of the sky are fed.

i was helping out at church this arvo for camp champions, a day camp for kids of families who stay in subi, and although the turn out was pretty crap (only 9 kids), i could still see the hearts of the other children's ministry leaders and how they got so involved with the kids and being enthusiastic about everything. playing with the kids was very exhausting, but it was worth it for the rare moments of joy. somehow today reminded me of me when i was a kid, just being so carefree, running around, playing, enthusiasm, not worrying about anything. the best thing about being a kid is also the innocence, the lack of shyness/boldness. the kids can just make friends in an instant! its so cool. there's so much things to learn from these kids. (:

crossroads tmr! (: i'm pretty excited for another day of children. cant wait!

a shout of praise.
6:20 PM

Thursday, August 16, 2007: Work Work, Study Study

"Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfector of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart."

Hebrews 12:1-3

ROAR, today at macro i was bombarded again by the word midsems. its like another big slap in the face, right in the same spot as where MA hit me. ROAR. and how bad it is to have it the friday before macro, and i have an OB essay due on the same monday as MA! :S Not Very Good At All.

exams, oh exams. i dont mind sitting for them, as long as i dont have to get them back or have the grade permanently mar my GPA. MOOO. (sidenote: i dont know why i'm getting such a kick out of the animal noises)

oh well, i shall start working hard now (: i made a list of things to be done everyday until exams. hopefully i'll be able to cover everything by midsems, then maybe i can get a good grade at the end of the sem! hopeful for a HD for at least 2 units, hurray!

i guess pray that i would be able to continue on with the rest of this semester with a cheerful heart, and that i would continue to persevere in this race so that i might be able to complete it to the best of my abilities so that i can glorify God with what i had along the way, faith, hope, joy and trust. (:

a shout of praise.
9:09 PM

Wednesday, August 15, 2007: RARH.

i was reminded today of the Management Accounting mid sems and RARHHH, its SO SOON. 3 weeks moreeee. (ooh, but that means 4 weeks till a week's worth of holidays :D ) RAHH, all the exams are round the corner!

thank goodness there isnt a mid sem exam for Stats, i might fail :S AND RARHH, i just realised that picking up OB means that i have to write an essay of 1,500 words by the 3rd of sept. that means 2 things to be done by the 3rd of sept, OB essay and study for MA.

WAHLIEWWWW.

BLEH. I'M SO DEAD.

i cant help but think of how exciting the holidays are gonna be. (: HURRY HOLIDAYS COME QUICKKKKK!

a shout of praise.
3:48 PM

Tuesday, August 14, 2007: afternote.

haha, i think some of you think that i'm a bit crazy now, why does she still put her faith in a God that doesn't let good things happen to her? or that i'm brainwashed by this book i call the bible.

but i dont know, perhaps its just the way i know that God is real to me, i can feel God's presence, i can feel Him speaking into my life and i can be sure of my citizenship in heaven. God isnt someone who causes bad things to happen to me, sometimes He allows bad things to happen for reasons, so that i can learn.

being christian isnt about being perfect either, no one is. Jesus was the only human, in His time in earth, who was. it is about having faith in Jesus, having laid down His life on the cross, so that we may be free from the way sin has a hold on our guilt and shame and uncertainty with God. And so we rejoice that we have been set free, we are also grateful for the grace and mercy that God chose to have to pardon us. christianity is also a journey of discovering God and knowing His goodness, faithfulness and soveriegnty in all circumstances.

being christian is saying that we are weak, but by God's power we are made strong,
being christian is saying that we are blind to the things that we cannot foresee, but by God we can see the things that are to come, the things that we can be sure of, like heaven, and Jesus' second coming.
being christian is saying that even if i have faith as small as a mustard seed, God can still use that tiny bit of faith to show me the wonders that He can achieve.
being christian, is saying that God, i put You in control, i put the things of You ahead of me, and even if i fail, as all humans do, You still forgive, You still can make things right.
being christian is saying that i love God, and that God loves me too, with an everlasting love.

a shout of praise.
8:32 AM

Faith as small as a mustard seed..

"My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing." James 1:2-3

at that point of time i dont know whether i should be disappointed or upset or be okay about everything and just move on from here. its like putting hope in something for nothing, sometimes i wonder why God even opened the door when He was going to shut it anyway. its all just a waste of preparing myself for it.

but then when i stop to process what seemed like a blow, i was yet again reminded of the lesson of God's faithfulness to me, and how i believe, as strongly as Dumbledore's Army believed that they could fight Voldemort, that God will continue to be faithful to me even through the doors that He has closed. God has been faithful, and i know that He will continue to be faithful. (phil 1:6) but i dont think i regret anything that has happened; i think all have brought me closer to the word of God, and understanding His purpose and will better.

it hurts and it smarts and it stings, even after thinking things through. sometimes i want to be immature about things, and just throw a tantrum or be stubborn or say something to hurt or even just fume away silently. but then i've come to realise that the way that i react, the things i do affect the way people feel, even if its just for that moment of pleasure to see them hurt the way i do. sometimes i wonder how Jesus had the love to forgive so quickly, and the grace to be kind.

to a certain extent i'm glad that even now, even in semi bitterness, God is always there to hear what i have to say, even though i dont want to hear what He has to say. i'm glad that God is loving enough to let me be wilful just this once, but patient enough to wait until i'm ready to show me other beautiful things that He can do in my life or use me for.

but yet to the rest of that extent i wish i could have some physcial comfort, i just want to be hugged and loved and be told that i'm still precious and i can still be used by God, even though i know it, very well.

but everything comes with a choice, and i think i still want to choose to be joyful over being stubborn, be patient over being angry, thank God instead of being reproachful.

All I Want To Do

All i want to do, is be close to You,

And all i want to say,

Is thank You for the way,

You love me, You love me.

Cos You are,

Faithful to all that You have promised.

And loving in all of Your ways,

Still with all of my failings,

You love me.

La la la la la la la la la la ~

a shout of praise.
12:40 AM

Saturday, August 11, 2007: Song In My Head.

I have a couple of songs in my head and they keep playing on rerun, and i thought i'd just share it with you (:

I didnt know this song was a song at first, i'd always see it on other people's blogs and i just thought it was a poem about how Jesus died on the cross, and that was that, since i'd already known the whole story. But i guess songs have a funny way of making you listen to the lyrics properly, and so i really soaked in the words, and really, its a very beautiful song about God's love and grace for all of us and Jesus' obedience, even to death on the cross.

Nichole Nordeman - Why
We rode into town the other day,
Just me and my daddy.
He said I'd finally reached that age,
And I could ride next to him on a horse
That of course, was not quite as wild.

We heard a crowd of people shouting,
And so we stopped to find out why.
There was that man that my dad said he loved,
But today there was fear in his eyes.

So I said, "Daddy, why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why is He dressed in that bright purple robe?
I bet that crown hurts Him more than He shows.
Daddy please, can't you do something?
He looks as though He's gonna cry.
You said He was stronger than all of those guys
Daddy, please tell me why.
Why does everyone want Him to die?"

Later that day, the sky grew cloudy,
And Daddy said I should go inside.
Somehow he knew things would get stormy.
Boy was he right, but I could not keep from wondering
If there was something he had to hide.

So after he left, I had to find out.
I was not afraid of getting lost.
So I followed the crowds to a hill
Where I knew men had been killed,
And I heard a voice come from the cross.

And it said, "Father, why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why are they casting their lots for my robe?
This crown of thorns hurts me more than it shows.
Father please, can't you do something?
I know that You must hear my cry.
I thought I could handle a cross of this size.
Father, remind me why.
Why does everyone want me to die?
Oh, when will I understand why?"

My precious son, I hear them screaming.
I’m watching the face of the enemy beaming.
But soon I will clothe you in robes of my own.
Jesus, this hurts me much more than you know,
But this dark hour, I must do nothing,
Though I’ve heard your unbearable cry.
The power in your blood destroys all of the lies;
Soon you’ll see past their unmerciful eyes.
Look, there below, see the child
Trembling by her father's side.
Now I can tell you why...
She is why you must die.

This other song is a kid's song (: but i likeee... haha, this song reminded me of the response i should be giving to God for what He has done on the cross for me (: it comes with really cute actions too! (: the song is CUTE!

Lincoln Brewster - Let The Praises Ring
Oh Lord my God, in you I put my trust
Oh Lord my God, in you I put my hope
Oh Lord my God, in you I put my trust
Oh Lord my God, in you I put my hope

In you
In you,

I find my peace
In you
In you,

I find my strength
In you, I live and move and breathe
Let everything I say and do
Be founded by my faith in You
I lift up holy hands and sing
Let the praises ring
Let the praises ring

Oh Lord my God, to you I give my hands
Oh Lord my God, to you I give my feet
Oh Lord my God, to you I give my everything
Oh Lord my God, to you I give my life

a shout of praise.
5:16 PM

Tuesday, August 7, 2007: lifter of my head.

just read zhen zhen's blog and i feel encouraged.
sometimes i feel blue,
sometimes the way i think and the way God thinks are so completely parallel,
sometimes the things i want and the things that God want differ,
sometimes i struggle with the things of this world and things of heaven,
sometimes the conflict is too hard to handle,
sometimes i disappoint,
sometimes i am tempted and i get weak,
sometimes i sin,

but yet,
God is the lifter of my head,
God can strengthen my weak heart,
God is the lover of my soul,
God loves me so much that He gave up the One thing He loved most,
God created me in His own image,
and He knew me in my mother's womb,
He is my rock and my salvation, of whom shall i be afraid?
God is the Almighty healer,
and He is the Alpha and Omega,
the Beginning and the End.

i wonder, why this? why again?
RARHH.

a shout of praise.
9:18 PM

Saturday, August 4, 2007: my happy christmas cards ((:

was doing abit of spring cleaning today, its rather scary how fast dust builds up in just 2 weeks, considering when i just came back here 2 fridays ago my room was still relatively dust free.

amazingly i realised that i had brought over my 2006 christmas cards from the brmc people back home and i have no idea why i did at the start of the year, but haha, am i glad that i did because they made me laugh at the things that they said, laugh at the memories from 2006 christmas, and laugh at the person i was in 2006.

several random thoughts:

1. the handwritings of kaye, sarah and eunice are so similar!

(okay so maybe more kaye and sarah than eunice but like the handwriting on the envelop was so similar i thought eunice and kaye's cards were from sarah! haha. oh well :D )

2. i had a really REALLY hard time deciphering who this card was from

(its from maurice. strange. it looks like maurice's name here, but i swear, it looked like mark and i was think why on earth would mark write me a christmas card when we hardly know each other? so i was thinking really hard and cheyyy, it was maurice. HAHA :P sorry.)

3. and while some guys have really hard to read handwriting, some have really nice ones (:

4. and in typical clement fashion, he makes his own christmas card.

simple but classy (:

5. its so amazing how someone from perth knows someone from back home :P

like take for instance, huilingling, she knows glenna banana! :D they were old neighbours! :D:D so COOL!

yay, (: thank you everyone for making my day by the christmas cards you sent last christmas. (: it's really wonderful! :D hopefully kaye will be able to join me this christmas in perth! :D going back to sg on the 19th of dec! so don't forget to write me an christmas card (:

a shout of praise.
11:18 AM

Friday, August 3, 2007: vroom vroom..

off for my driving lesson in like, 7 minutes (:

hopefully i dont crash the car.

but i just found out recently that we actually are contributing to insurance, so i dont have to pay a cent if i bang into something :D

i like my driving instructor's car

and ooh, hopefully i get into a parking lot by myself on the first try.

YAY! driving driving :D

a shout of praise.
5:11 PM

Thursday, August 2, 2007: good morning starshine (:

yay, another beautiful beautiful day (: woke up to a really nice a warm morning (i was under 5 blankets) at 7.45am and rushed to school for an 8am lecture. HAHA, sounds familar? good old secondary sch days. i think i like the way steam comes out of my mouth in the mornings. and i like the way the sun shines down early in the morning and you can see the sun rays. normally by the time i get up the sun's high in the sky already..

but yeah, hurray to another beautiful day. such a pity i have to spend the rest of today at student cafe working today. mmm :/ oh well.

sorry james/jamin, i know we need more rain but i dont like the rain ):

a shout of praise.
11:12 AM